susan

2009-02-10T06:49:00.000-08:00

they dont seem to understand what im going thru,or what im feeling.
trashed it all on me.
everything's been my fault.
mayb th part about favourtism among our family mem. are true.
i felt that it was like that.
you have your favourite daughter/son.
that is one bullshit,fckng asshole crap that i hated v much in th family.
its just too obvious. and yet you keep denying and say its just me who stress out myself over small matters.
please,dont put th blame on me.
i need a break,please.

2009-02-10T05:03:00.000-08:00

monday : pe was fun.
played captain's ball,together with th boys.
they were rough,but wtv,it was fun.
tuesday :
had th food ration thing.
was okay.th food was kinda nice.
school was release early.
straight away to cheris's home.
changed.went to plaza sing.
bought stuffs.eat.trained back home.

btw,happy fifth monthsary to nia&abu.
sukeeeeee nia. hah

yea,im a jonas bro. fan.
joe is mine.nick too. well,kevin also.
i miss chris brown. gah
bye

2009-02-09T06:41:00.000-08:00

so ya,changed my blogskin. by myself,for th first time.
not nice eh. i want find simple simple.

im looking forward to having a fun time with you and you and you tomorow.
k go ,
snap.

im watching grammys award(music)?
and jonas brothers was performing.
joe jonas's hair is cute hah ,nick got th retro kinda hair/80s. while kevin,still th same except shorter. curlier.

random huh
bye

2009-02-06T06:38:00.000-08:00

test test test.
i totally forget about circular measure.
need help? yes,i do.
and ive got a kindhearted soul who gladly 'voulenteer'to help me with my studies. great.

so yea, just now aft school went to amkhub with cheris.
bought her pencilbox at artbox.
everywhere we go,theres couples.
gahhargh.
val's day coming?
cheris and i are just envy
why why why why why?

bye

2009-02-03T01:57:00.000-08:00

everything's been fine. i guess,NOT.
i just messed up on POA TEST.
depreciation? gahhargh
GEOG TEST is up next week.
i have to stop procrastinating.

im confused.
why this that now then later?
qustions are still mingling around in my head/mind.wtv
what am i suppose to do? this that now then later.
everything's fine.
but th fact is,its not. is it?
its not totally fine. yea,wtv
schools fine?
that does not include beeing all stressed up out down in left right.
family's fine?
it had always been,hadnt it? its great now,i guess.
friendship's fine?
told you what,im not sure either. omg,smackmerightinthface
r/s fine?
i might as well say,singlehood been fine. coping,while struggling. ienvythosecouples. that include you nia.:D
k,im done bout that.
sum all th bold words and stress is what im experiencing now.
ayooo,ikno.

ive been having dreams.
its good.good dreams well im not sharing

k go

2009-02-02T04:23:00.000-08:00

hello.
chem test was not ok.gahhoohoo
i should be mugging for poa test now.
but im here instead,blogging. gah
k dah,bye.
mug-gah now.

torres hot eh?
kaka better. woo^^v

2009-01-29T04:50:00.000-08:00

last year pic.

im not fine.
im not sure why.
susan's having moodswings.
so,takmo cari pasal.
thankyou

2009-01-29T04:04:00.000-08:00

gah, back to blogdom. hello
to sum it all up,i had a great cnyr hols.
friday night went to ecp with th usual people
cycled.eat.cycled.bersembang.bersantai.eat.cycled.walked.
it was not tht fun huh.
gah,saturday stayed at home.
sunday,went to ecp around ptg.(with th same people again)
plan was just to picnic there like till midnight,but
we went overboard till we reached home at 6am?
but overall was sungguh fun.
soooo,reached there at 5pm,then settled.
eat eat eat.beh rest.
then go cycling.rest.bought slurpee.lepak-ed.talk craps.cycled.
soon it was already midnight.
adik got a text from her 'crush'.
he was at ecp too,and he suggest they meet up since it was their somewhat their chance.
so,me and ika,accompanied her to meet that guy and his friend.
gah, description of that dudeee.
hes kinda short.cute.hot.funny.lame.irritating.SKATER dudeeee. adik terus cair
well,they met like three times in one night?
12am,130am,315am till 430am?

sebenarnye info ni sume tak perlu.

2009-01-23T01:59:00.000-08:00

im bored.
k go.
btw,today's assembly was ok,cause i like th flexible cinaboys&girls. gahah.
some of th exbeattyians who had just grad last year came back.
tak heran (?)
every subjects have been gg on good.
well except for english. boring maut
comb humans&sciences been okay,maths ,im trying my best.
and im starting to like th subject tho i just failed th first test (i need like one mark to pass.)(Y)
cheris,mayb he is gay. gay goldfish. gah,you kno i kno,they dont kno

k done,susan lame.

i miss th irresistable sexygayboy hotstuff. don't ask who.
kay bye

2009-01-20T02:51:00.000-08:00

today,we had live lesson.
and ms soh suddenly plan for th class gathering in 2013.
we had set a date, 05/01/2013,at some exp.hotel. gah
by that time,we will be 24?
mayb most of us are already in a high paid jobs.
mayb some of us had just gotten married or mayb we are distributing our wedding cards/invitation. who knows?
sery said she might bringing her future boyf along. haha,same same.
parents wants me to be in pharmacy something something.
maybe i will,cause that section arent gonna die, a better future they say.
e-maths test is tmr,gonna mug-gah.

2009-01-18T03:06:00.000-08:00

its f. wrong.

parents been offering me to take up tuition.
mayb i will. (Y)
girl please,maths is not boring.

2009-01-17T06:35:00.000-08:00

tests coming up soon.
ive been mugging.(Y)

lets seeeee.
monday :
was suppose to come to school at 840am.
but i came early,like as per normal,at 715 i reached th school side gate.
i stopped.look at th time and swear myself.
bodo pe susan.
paiseh-ed.went back home and had heavy breakfast ^^
then nothing much happend.

tuesday :
tak ingat langsung.

wednesday:
aft school went to amkhub with nia&cheris.
nia shopped for abu's bday present and a notebook/diary fo herself.

thursday:
aft school went to j8 with cheris.then met up with sister.
bought mama's bday presents den bus-ed home.
happy 44th birthday(!)
mama masih muda k. (:

friday:
gah,nothing much happened at school.
im th sweet supplier. mayb i should stop?
aft school,trained to kallang.alone.
met up with SHAH. ^^
lepak-ed with him till 4 ?
it was fun eh. andddddd your not that tall k shah.
meet you again soooon k.

till th next post eh korang.
bye,takecare. ^^v

2009-01-13T05:05:00.000-08:00

its candid,PRABESH snap this.i wasnt mugging,im doing some stuff for sangee.

been mugging and doing all th homeworks.(k some)
but i tried.especially fo POA.
sery was surprise eh? bagus.(Y)
olevel result is v much expected?
see,idont have high hopes/expections for that papers.
and i didnt cry or shout or wtv,senang kate,i have no reactions.
tears was swelling up ,but then i took a breathe and took it as a learning point.
im retaking both papers.
so,now,ive set th targets,
and im trying to get at least 15 points.
hopefully.
saye hanye kena usahakan sahaje.
im trying my best.
cause my parents are setting high expections on me.ayo

2009-01-10T00:07:00.000-08:00

no,im bored.
so im just gonna post some random pics.

2009-01-09T07:50:00.000-08:00

im updating on behalf of sery.gah
im not gonna update much.just occasionally,where there are something int. happen.

school have been fine,except for today.
i feel for you eh nia.
seriously dia takde hak nak ckp rambut kau ugly?
wtf eh eh.
hes jealous.
two days ago was sery's 17th birthday.
happy belated bday!
17 times of shaking hands & wishing is much more better than getting smacks,kn?
so ya,your not old ye,im saying that cause soon its gg b my turn (:
monday is th olevel result release.
gah,takut ade,relax ade.
i didnt put much hope on th papers,so ya.
theres not much for me to b excited about.

till th next post,bye.

2008-12-13T02:02:00.000-08:00

people might think and say,
'aye, ni pompan da ditinggalkan
dr bf baru nak dtg cari kite'

yup,after what im going thru nw,
i felt that im doing that to you girls.
i dont wnt you girls to think that
i will only look fr u ppl when ive no one arnd me.
cause i am really not that type of person.
i made a mistake. huge
well,i feel guilty nw.

crush crush crush

2008-12-13T01:46:00.000-08:00

ive not fully figured what have happened.
but little by little,it started to show.

ive pushed myself away frm th people that i should appreciate and b with.
girlf(s)
they ar th ones whom will be by our side.
thru hard&good times.
ive been blinded. by my own stupid did.

i kno ive been th one whos letting myself away from being with you guys.
ive neglected our friendship.
IM TRULLY SORRY

gah,i screw up again eh?

2008-12-13T01:33:00.000-08:00

and im still figuring out what ive done.
but i kno ive not been catching up with you girls lately.
ifelt th guilt.
i kno im in a wrong.
im so sorry.
ive been selfish.

ive learnt my mistake.
its over and done.
i might be over it much faster then you expected.

after you.

2008-12-09T04:33:00.000-08:00

supppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp,
im bored.

im still waiting. patiently
currently am just chatting with nazROCKER. gah,rocker pe.
k tak,he went offline cause basically i went offline first.
tak perlu bilang eh su.

sape kpoh,draw uh.
susanti sombong. \m/

bye
with(❤)

2008-12-09T02:07:00.000-08:00

i bet you are eh.
screw you

to LFD.(❤)
hah,im one of your no.1 fan aye.
tho i dont really kno you guys except for shah,
i kno you guys formed a good band !
just keep me update with your stuffs aite.
im supporting you guys.
and shah,remember,
if ever you have a gig,dedicate one song to me.hah you promised
rock on, \m/

2008-12-09T01:55:00.000-08:00

gah,im tired.
hours ago accompanied mama to ica building with sisters.
next monday need to collect th passport.
nothing much happened.
just that on our way back to th mrt station terserempak with cousins.
pfft,kecoh peh makcik.
but amri was still hot and SOMBONG as before,except that hes not getting any taller.
trained back home,plan was to eat at fork&spoon at tp.
but then sis was starting complaining nak vomit.
so stop at somerset.
gah,she vomitted on my shoes that she was wearing. baek pe
den naik, to toilet,while waiting for her,watched some dudes skate. hot pe.
den took taxi home.
currently still waiting for idris's reply.
having fun eh syg?

2008-12-08T08:24:00.001-08:00

1.The way to win your heart?
uh,entah,just be yourself aye.but ade orang da menang hati saye.

2.What did you do last night?
watched tv.

3.Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
my name's one of a kind. LMFAO

4.Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
NO.

5.One song that is meaningful to you?
entah seh.banyak taw.

6.Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
twirl!

7.Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
haha,if its mine,yes

8.How long is your hair?
till my neck .

9.Do you like Batman?
haha

10.Who was the last person who told you they loved you?
idris.!

11.Addicted to anything?
chocolate (:

12.Do you like anyone now?
no,i love someone.

13.When was the last time you sang out loud?
i do it everytime.athome

14.What did you have for breakfast?
rice with curry ayam.nenek masak! woo

15.Is your birthday on a holiday?
aha,nope.

16.Can you cook?
yes yes, i cook maggi very well.and some dishes,mama ku ajar.

17.Did you have a nap today?
yup.

18.What was the reason you got in trouble last time?
ah,lupe

19.What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
jeans?

20.When is your birthday?
17 february

21.Do you swear a lot?
haah,sometimes aje.

22.Where did you get the shirt(s) you're wearing?
malaysia.

23.Do you have any regrets?
now,takde.

24.What was your first alcoholic drink?
saye tak minom.

25.What color are your favorite shoes?
red.

26.Who would you like to see right now?
idrisbby and girlf(s)

27.Are you a social or antisocial person?
maybe both uh?

28.Have the cops ever come by your house?
nope

29.Ever been in love?
i am now.

30.Ever had braces?
no

31.Who was the first person to really break your heart?
entah,i sudah lupekan.

32.What do you wear to bed?
tshirt and shorts

33.Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
my first bestf are nadheerah,no,we lost contact cause she moved.i wanna meet youuu nad!

34.Who was the last person to disappoint you?
entah

35.Do you trust people?
hah i do.

36.Who was the first person you talked to today ?
adik

37.Who was the first person to text you today?
idris!

38.What was the first thing you did this morning?
shower.

Three names in your inbox cellphone?
-sery,cheris,mama

Your main ringtone?
-one step back by hot prophets for th future! (its my bro's frens band.mat noh and all)

What did you do at 12 last night?
-was watching tv.

Who was the last person you went out with?
-abang and adik

The colour of the T-shirt you're wearing now and what does it say?
-yellow .its plain

The last thing you did?
-watching tv before this

Three of your everyday items?
-hp , wallet , psp

How much money in your wallet now?
-$5 & us$3. pathetic

How's life?
-its gg good cause i have th bestest people around me.

What will you do next weekend?
-entah?

When was the last time you saw your mom?
-just now

Where is she now?
-in her room . .sleeping .. ZzZzZzZ . .

When was the last time you talked to your parents?
-to mama, just now, to ayah,weeks ago .

Who is the last person that texted you?
-cheris

Where did you have your dinner last night?
-home

The last surprise you got?
-no surprise ah,sedeh pe.

Last thing you borrowed from your friends?
-hair band,cheris's

Who is your bf/gf or husband/wife?
- AL-IDRIS BIN KHAIRIL ANUAR.

What do you feel now?
-mix feelings ah.

Who knows your secret?
-girlf(s) and im planning to let idris know my secrets too/

Do they keep your secret?
-aha,yea.i trust them.

Are you angry with someone?
-nope

What did you last order at Macdonald's?
- entah

The last time you feel so sad?
-just now .

What is your wish for tomorrow?
-to have fun

If you could seek revenge on someone would you?
-nope.im a good girl. hah

What are you listening to right now?
-nth

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
-long time ago . . heheh

What would I find if I looked UNDER your bed?
-my dad's stuffs.

How many people have you kissed in 2008?
- one! saye setieee.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
- yup cause i got a msg from idris and that im gg to meet nenek and atok.

What is a fact about the last person who texted you?
-hes my hot boyf.

Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
-yupps . .

Lyrics from the song you're listening to?
-im not listening to any songs.

2008-12-08T07:54:00.000-08:00

What do the majority of people in your life call you?
:SU

Do you still talk to the person you were dating 6 months ago?
: 6 months ago,i was dating idris,now,i am still with him (yey) ,so yea i still do talk to him.

What color is your phone?
:dark grey and black.

Who is the last male you hugged?
: ayah sayang. before he went to phuket.

Do you enjoy drama?
: Yeah,some

Did you learn anything from the last BIG mistake you made?
: Yup.

Do you have dimples when you smile?
: Haha.Make me smile & see whether there's any.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
: Hopefully.

What would you do if your best friend was moving away?
: I'll meet him/her straightaway!

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
: Of course. I dont like people who plays around with my feelings.

What do you think of your last kiss?
:hah,no comment.

Do you kiss a lot of people today?
:no,i tak kiss sapesape for th pass two weeks or more.

Name one person that made you smile today?
: ATOK!

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
: Sleeping. Ha-ha.

Have you cried in the last 24 hours?
:oh,no.

Do you have a best friend?
: i have BESTFRIENDS!

Is anyone jealous of you?
:are you?

How do you feel about your hair right now?
: entah seh

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
:what do you think?

Can you handle the truth?
: Hopefully. As time passes, we'll still need to accept the fact.

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
: Yea

Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
:urmm,idk,have to think.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
: TRUE.

Are you taller than 5foot?
:ahaha,entah.i admit,im short

Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
: Yeah.i love you bestf(s)!

Have you ever told someone you were single when you really werent?
:no

Today did you hug the person you have feelings for?
:no,i miss him

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
: I tend to. Ha-ha.

Did you ever lose a best friend?
:yup.

Are any of your friends taller than you?
:haha,yea,most of them.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
: entah,am i?

Do you wave when you see people you know?
:aah,most of th time.

Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
:haha,yea

Do you hate being alone?
: YEAH.